Nobody cares

 Nobody cares what you are doing, Eleriin. This life is yours.. Make something beautiful out of it. I know you are capable of good things. I am going to stop living like this. This just can't be my life. I wanna be happier. I really wish I felt more myself every day and feel joy about things and life. I really have been going through a lot. I deserve some relief. Really, I do. I want to feel more alive. I just want to enjoy life. Not only be depressed all the time. I will get out of this, I know it.